One Month Countdown

Well as of tomorrow I will officially be one month away from my departure date to Germany. The feelings that are overwhelming me are just that overwhelming. For the most part when I began pursuing my dream of being a foreign exchange student I was just in it to see if I could even get close to making it happen. I can still remember the moment when I decided this was what I wanted to do. It was actually in my German 3 Honors class when I took up to Guidance to talk with my lovely guidance counselor, Mrs Creech, that it was decided foreign exchange was for me. After we had talked about it I told her I would have to think about it and look more into it before I made a final decision. So, I headed back to class with this crazy idea of going to Germany for my Senior year. As soon as I got back I, of course, stopped what we were doing to discuss it with the class. Now the class itself consisted of some of my closest friends so I knew what they said was true and that they meant it so I asked what they thought. Immediately they all said to do it because no one had done it and that it was too big of an opportunity to let go. So then the long, yet short, journey began to become an exchange student. At first my father was hesitant the cost so great and loads more, but I immediately put my foot down and told him there was no choice I was going to Germany for my Senior year. Instead of chewing me out he was quiet (this was after my heartfelt spill) and he simply said “okay.” Since then we’ve raised around 3,000 dollars and well in this next week that will greatly increase. The journey from that moment certainly haven’t been the easiest, but even now before I’ve even left for Germany I’ve learned so much about myself and grown closer to my dad, something I thought would never happen, so it’s been an awesome experience.

Now though with one month to my departure the actual finality of what I’m doing is crashing down upon me. I’m beginning to realize all I’m leaving behind and all the small things of home that I will miss. My friends for example are one of the many things I will miss above all. I guess one of the best examples if my best friend Heather. What sucks about me leaving and our schedules is..well I won’t even be able to see her before I leave. She will be gone the last two weeks I’m here in the states and it just gives this awful finality to the whole ordeal. On top of that I’m beginning to see the little things of home that I know I’ll just miss. It’s strange to be honest. I’m starting to realize how much I love my home. I figure sometimes you can’t really appreciate something fully until you lose it or leave it for a while. Well now that I’ve wrote a good bit I guess I’ll call it quits on today’s post. So just check in or subscribe to read about how the pre-departure journey is coming.

Kurtimus