The Call

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Til it was a battle cry
I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

The song is “The Call” by Regina Spektor. It was my “theme song” for leaving my friends back almost a year ago now, but after hearing it today in the context of the movie it was from I realize it is still my “theme” and will be so for a long while. With the year anniversary of leaving for Germany soon and as I move on to college it reminds of so much. The lyrics are very powerful for me as eve the beginning was exactly how I got to Germany. It start out as a feeling…which then grew into a hope..which turn into a quiet thought then into words and progressing on and on until no one could stop me from getting to my goal. Although now the process is once more starting over, but one phase of this song of my life remains to be fulfilled.

So now we’re back to the beginning. The next few lines of the song are most important to me now:
“It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget”
Even though I cannot truly describe the feelings I have for returning to Germany, my friends here try to put the reasoning towards other parts of my life. It makes me want to forget it all together, but like the song says I don’t have to. Recently my plans for returnign have ben changed and changed oh and changed once more, but to my friends there in Germany I say, “You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye.”

I know you guys want to see me, and I speak to one person individually at this point, but don’t worry I will return as I promised. I’ll come back when you call me there is no need to say goodbye. We will see each other soon enough.

I am hoping that maybe this short and random post will give yuo an insight into how I feel. The song is perfect and if you haven’t heard it well..I’ll link it right here. I also hope that ‘ll be able to find my old writings from my last few weeks in Germany and post them here on August 16th, the day I left for Germany in 2008.